a thought

" We're all connected by the inevitablilty of adversity and universality of suffering. The isolation and loneliness of stuggle are illusions. If we band together, tethering ourselves to family, friends and fellow survivors, we bolster our chances of overcoming......Ben Sherwood

What a relief that is to me.. I need all of you. I love you... Marion

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Let me ask you a question? Are you happy?

Funny

Today we were talking about our animals, because Gus sucks and I was saying he's the worst thing on Earth (as a side note, Gus has peed on our floor three times *just* in the new year, and I pretty much hate him and think he'd make better dog food than a dog). Craig defended our idiot dog, said he's not the worst, but close to it. Then we started talking lightly about how our fish is "still alive" (we constantly wonder if it's alive or dead), and Connor's brain must have turned on at that moment.

Connor chimed in with, "We've had that fish for such a long time! We've had him for like, forever. What's his name again?"

Ok, it's 12/31/2009 - I feel absolutely miserable and downhearted.
Sandy thinks it's because Im not smoking, John doesn't have a fucking clue. But I do know this. At this moment in time I truly hate just about everything and everybody. Should I state that? Probably not.

Life just sucks. Has for awhile. Now of course it could get a whole lot worse - like some horrible sickness (for me or anyone I love), but that doesn't appear to be enough to make me feel better.

I'm too unhappy to even write anymore.

Bye

Connor, Elly, and I all visited Mom&Dad's house this weekend before Christmas - it was a ton of fun! We went to the toboggan run, sled down Sandy's hills a bunch of times, and had a good time overall. We missed you all! Mom took this picture of us on the huge toboggan about to go down the hill at Sandy's. Mom's new dog (Emma) wanted to get on the sled so bad! Elly only knows a few words, but one of them is "Snow" (which sounds like "Gnoooow" in her little voice), which definitely stems from her trip to Munga and Papa's. Fun!


I wish we all could get together for Christmas! We've got to do it soon; not for Christmas (obviously, because it's tomorrow), but soon. A summer vacation, maybe? Spring break? I just feel, especially on this night, like our family is drifting apart, and I'd love to be all together again for a few days. Anyway, gotta get going to get Connor to bed! Santa's coming!

And another thing

If you're not very observant, there's another new post just below this one.

And JUST BELOW THAT ONE, there's a post where I asked for my sisters specifically to please post little wish lists for their children. I'm not sure how we're going to do this - nobody has a lot of money, and there are a lot of kids this year, so buying presents for ALL of the other kids is probably somewhat difficult.

So here's my genius idea.

Why don't we do a secret santa type thing for the kids? The only problem is that there are seven kids (Ryley, Ashley, Connor, Savannah, Elly, Samuel, Sophie) and six adults (Mom, Dad, Christine, Mary, me, Carole). That's the one hitch I can't get past, so please chime in if you have suggestions. Otherwise, it would be pretty cool to just have one kid to buy for, maybe three presents or something, and less worry about getting something for everyone.

Anyway. Or you could all keep ignoring me and pretending Christmas isn't coming.